I had what one would perceive a “big win” in my business today.

I’m still feeling down. Didn’t get out of bed until 230pm. I almost bailed on my business commitment but after pushing through, I made it. The meeting went great and I landed the account.

While mentally I knew this was a win, I simply couldn’t feel it. The depression makes me feel and think “what’s the point?”. What’s the point of being happy about this when depression is going to consume my life. (I know I know. This thought a lot is a very black and white thought)

However, since I was already out I decided to go grocery shopping. And after grocery shopping… I cleaned my fridge and freezer! I also vacuumed and did laundry.

I’m slowly feeling less depressed and manic. I am grateful that I can acknowledge my moods are attributed to medication withdrawal/change. A few years ago I probably wouldn’t have seen this and gone a bit stir crazy.

Another win. Last night I made pasta dinner and I ate the left overs tonight. I guess it’s a win because the previous few nights I’ve been ordering food.

Slowly but surely. It’s going to be ok.