Inspired by Selena Gomez to share my Mental Health diagnosis

When Selena Gomez openly talked about her mood disorder last fall 2022, I was in enamoured by her. She openly spoke about her struggle being diagnosed and living with Bipolar Disorder.

In Love With The New Selena

I haven’t mustered the bravery to watch her documentary on Apple+ as I think it would probably hit a lot of triggers, but I love the new her. She is truly just being herself and it shows. It’s the type of beauty I want to develop within myself.

Obviously her announcement made me think of my own situation as I’m sure it did for many others. How many of us are hiding in our feelings, our mood disorders, or the things we use to numb ourselves? Too many. Myself included.

I’ve been wanting to talk about my own diagnosis for a while now.. always trying to find the best or right way to do it. I don’t think there is one.

I’ve spoken about living with severe depression and suicidality on my instagram and youtube since 2022. That has been a journey and one I really want to grow from, but what I want to talk more about is my further diagnoses.

The Fear of Judgement

My biggest pet peeve when telling someone about my mood disorders is having them question it. The worst is when it is someone close to me and often that’s who I’m confiding in anyways.

“Do you actually have it?”

“Have you been officially diagnosed?”

“Who said?”

In my situation, my family doctor diagnosed me with depression before I was 20 years old. He referred me to a psychiatrist. My psychiatrist then diagnosed me with severe depression when I was 22.

I will end this post with these two diagnoses and share my other ones next time. I promise it’s coming soon. My soul is finally in a place to share it.

Slowly but surely,
Natasha